The transition between child to teenager is simple. You stop carrying around your dolls and start following boys around. But what about the transition between teenager to adult? That takes a bit longer.
Or does it?
I woke up one morning to cinder blocked walls & a hangover in a room the size of a bathroom with a girl I didn't know who will be my roommate in college, blinked, and now I am a 24 year old woman beginning her own business limiting myself to a glass of wine, once every 6 months to avoid a headache & limit my calorie intake.
I am a proud woman, but I don't "feel" like a woman. (all the time)
Que Britney Spears: "I'm Not A Girl, Not Yet A Woman" please.
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It could be that I can still pass as a sophomore... in high school. It could be that my voice sounds like a girl who still plays with Polly Pockets (are those still around?!). I may not know exactly what it is that makes me feel like a girl sometimes, but is that a bad thing? To some, yes it is. I believe my looks could hold me back from jobs and being taken serious. I was in a meeting last week and when a woman found out I owned my own business she asked how old I was. When I told her my age, she said she thought I was younger and was taken back that I owned my own business. Can looks make you feel more like a girl and less than a woman? My fashion has changed dramatically since my teenage years, does that make me a woman?
Trying on wedding dresses on Sunday, I looked at myself and thought- WOW, I look like a child bride. One day I will enjoy looking younger, but can your look affect the way you feel about your womanhood?
I grew up and am still very much a "daddy's little girl". I don't care how old I am, I will always be called that and it will always remain being true. You don't hear people say "daddy's little woman" because, well, that is just weird. And creepy. But does that make me still a girl? No. At least I don't think so.
So at what point do you turn from being a girl to a woman? For Britney Spears in Crossroads it wasn't at 18 years old, graduating high school and traveling to LA and becoming a singer after a terrible reunion with her real mom and hooking up with a really good guy.
If that doesn't sound like a grown-up thing to do, I don't know what does.
Being a WOMAN, strong, independent, a feminism seems like the social norm. What you should be and if you are not, then you are living life all wrong. But what if I just don't feel like a woman SOMETIMES. Is it okay to SOMETIMES feel like a girl? Not wanting to grow up some days but others ready to take on the world. Can that be acceptable?
I can hardly believe I am the only one with this question and this struggle. Some women out there may not realize they have a hard time deciphering between girl and woman status but I am here to tell you, in my opinion, that that is OK. You can be a girl & a woman (for now, at least)
I am 24.. that is it. I am not dead yet. I may own my own business and my own home, but there are days and times that I like to jam out to Taylor Swift, read People Magazine, watch an old episode of Laguna Beach, and think about ordering that crop top from Hollister.
