Are You Judging Me?

Today I decided to take a long run to clear my head. Now, let me advice you, as a writer you do not usually want to "clear your head" with a run. The way you clear your head as a writer is, well, write. But today, I felt like taking advantage of the beautiful sunshine we are having here in Chi-town, and take a run.

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And let me tell you.... It was EXACTLY what the doctor ordered. The view alone is enough to make your bad day turn good!

I have had a rough 48 hours, but I refuse to let anything hold me back and I refuse to let anything stand in my way of chasing my dreams. 

The whole time I was running I could not help but think people were judging me, though. I am no size zero, I am a size eight. Do I wish I was smaller? Absolutely. But right now, I am what I am and I am working on it. But my whole run I felt as if eyes were looking at me like what is this heavier girl doing running. Or every time I would stop to walk, I felt as if I was getting laughed at. 

Then I stopped and though to myself: at least I am out here running. At least I am out here walking. I could have continued laying on my couch watching The Big Bang Theory but instead I got up, got out, and ran. Who knows if all, one, two, or any of the people I saw were judging me, but if you are reading this and judging me, now you know how I feel. I run and I workout. 

The past 5 weeks I have been out here I promised a friend of mine I was turning over a new leaf and becoming the healthier me, and I have. I am buying a lot more organic, eating VERY right, and walking as much as possible. I have not seen any improvements yet, which can be very discouraging, but after running as much and as far as I did today, I know that is it making changes. Just slowly.

I am always taking advice & tips on anything health & fitness. I would love to hear from you!

Now, get out there & be active!

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